I do regret cutting off our friendship, but it’s for the better.
I know I never told you about your problematic behaviors even when you asked, thus me cutting off our friendship may seem “unfair.” However, you have done the same things time and time again, and even received consequences from others (the time when you were banned from the DC server). Yet, despite this, and my confession of how I felt harassed by you, you’ve never changed.
I bought some clothing and wore it on my avatar. Then, the biggest mistake I’ve made in our friendship; I saved it as an outfit. I assume you used some catalog game, but you started wearing it. You didn’t even ask to wear it. Didn’t reach out, nothing. Sounds familiar, no? Just in case it doesn’t, this was the exact same thing that happened in January and led our friendship to drift apart.
I don’t know what’s going through your mind, but you’re allegedly 28 years old. Does it not cross your mind about how others would feel when you copy their avatars? Countless MRs at SK have told you not to wear their avatars, you’ve received consequences for doing so. How would I be any different?
On top of that, you started picking up my formality. Now, I’m not saying that you can’t be formal, but when someone starts wearing your avatar and also starts picking up on how you act, it doesn’t end well. It drove me mad, I was losing my sense of identity, to a 28 year old who couldn’t comprehend how wrong their actions were.
I hated seeing you wear my avatar. I never bothered telling you to take it off since I didn’t want to digest any drama. Eventually, I asked you to take off my avatar during my confession. You didn’t. You claimed that you were sorry. Yet, you still wore it.
Worse yet, you lied about our relationship. Even though we were merely friends, you lied to others that we were brothers, twins, etc, and that we were matching avatars. Since when did you get my consent? I know I never told you, but the only reason I lied to all of my colleagues was to avoid drama.
As if the list couldn’t get worse.
I’ll just list everything else below.
You caused drama in just about everything we did together; in games, you argued with random strangers because they weren’t as efficient as you.
You weaponized me in SK, when you used our friendship as a means to threaten a RA; “Night is my friend and I’ll have him terminate you,” or some shit along the lines of that.
You caused drama will all of my friends, and I know what you’ve done. You always send ‘proof’ that you’re innocent in an attempt to fracture our friendship with others, but I know better than that. All the times you send those pieces of evidence was fake. It was only pieces of the whole discussion; it was a fake ass attempt at making yourself look like the victim. Luckily, everyone you’ve argued with and reported me to, have sent me the full discussion and what truly happened. I see right through it.
Yet, despite all these behavioral issues you have, you expect me not to be unhappy in one way or another? I have talked behind your back about you, yes, and I acknowledge that I’m wrong. It’s the only thing that held me back from cutting off our friendship this whole time. That I was supposed to be there while your colon cancer worsened. But you know what? I did exactly what people do when they’re unhappy.
You see it in simple history. If people are unhappy with a king’s rule, they’ll talk about the king’s back and rebel. It’s almost the same here. If your friends are unhappy, they’ll talk about your back and eventually break apart from you.
That’s why I’m blocking you. I’m done with our friendship. Again, as I’ve said countless of times, I’m sorry this had to happen. I can’t say I appreciated our friendship while it lasted, but I do appreciate your efforts to rebuild a fragmented friendship. I’m pretty sure we both knew, deep down, that our friendship was already fragmented from the start. It was just never meant to be.
And yes, I swore. I’m both disappointed at, and done with you. Good luck on the future of your life. And I don’t care if you make me look like the one in the wrong here, just like how you do to my friends, because we all know that you’ve done some serious shit.
Our friendship has taken a serious toll on my mental health, and I don’t want you back in my life (unless you’ve genuinely changed, which I doubt since you haven’t despite many consequences and confrontations within these 5 months.)
I’m giving you a list of your problematic behaviors so that you can work on it, and potentially make new friends as a better person. It might seem bitchy of me to do this all of a sudden, but I’ve been considering it for at least 2-3 months now.
So stop with your empty apologies. You claim over and over again that you're sorry, but you don't show it.
Farewell.